| moving to a new blog on this day happybirthdaytomyself ♥ |
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| another long month that i did not reveal the self to this very publicly known blog. its always hard for me to keep updating this since i can barely make myself available just to sit in front of the screen and type out my current feelings with my instincts. somtimes i really do wonder how long can i keep this, it is possible that i would not publish another entry for half year after this. too many things are occupying my mind recently, its always hard to make a big decision when u're going to lose something either way. since i dont know when, someone once taught me when u want what to pick, physcially go grab a paper and pen, write down all the pros can cons of every single alternatives, then give a weight on each of these boo and yay. according to psychology, humans determine their behaviour according to their value, we're living in a world of PXEXB, an interaction of people, expected value and behavior. isn't that saying we're all living in a world of perception? but so then perception make us confuse, we cannot make up out mind simply because of we perceive stories we're living in this single moment would never have a second take, which make sense because every experiences we had in our life are too unique to happen another time....and i guess i did not give myself an explanation to answer my puzzlement in the first place. or maybe the next thing i should do right after this is to grab a paper and pen...where should and would is never the same. why can't everything just like the fantasy world that we used to love the torture is to forgo all these unchangable memories in my life while everyone around is saying memories were not gone, if they're there and they will be forever in your heart. fate tells you to let go, and what else you're going to do? the pain exist only because you are the person that make yourself suffer.
怎麼去擁有 一道彩虹
怎麼去擁抱 一夏天的風
天上的星星 笑地上的人
總是不能懂 不能覺得足夠 |
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| suddenly,
a feeling of separation.. thats right
even theres no way to change it, the world just simply will not stop
seeing so many departure
seeing so many changes of people around
and they are still happening every second to live for the moment or to live for your life
i just want to live with music peacefully
who said music is useless and people that are doing music are wasting their time?
at least, i see the world through music critical thinking is never easy
im missing home
im missing all those days
but u will never learn without leaving the base go wherever you want to go,
go choose the life you want to live...
here i beg u, please if thers no word
can you please listen to me through your heart
no more talkings, just feel it soulmate, i kno u're listening to this ever-changing me thru all these times
i did not forget the one that you used to know
and she wud like to let you know, she still needs u
cuz she still do not know how to protect herself from all these pain |
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| y is it like that again
so hard to understandddd..
i guess its fate that this year is for me to go thru all these psychological obstacles. |
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